La La Land

It's one day left till the week on HOLIDAY comes!!! which means YAY YAY YAY XDD

I really have been such a bitch to everyone... Lunch today, was horrible for the fact that I got so ****ing mad at someone and then there is a series of bunch of things going on a lot in my mind lately. Gosh I JUST WANT A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING AND I MEAN ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING :( I wan to spend nice time with myself or with some close friends if they have time or have tea may be (or not I'll we sip tea on my own) and I want to draw and paint something.

Plan for the holiday? I don't know...

I'll probably be watching CSI and stuff for the lost of two months without watching anything.

I'll paint for the time I've not been painting. I'll sip tea for the time my head goes crazy.

I'll slap myself for being so aggressive (this is for tmr if I actually do get so pissed)

I'll relax my mind for the time I've been so busy. I'll eat lots and lots more fruit for the time I eat Bot Chien.

I'll free myself from the world and just simply say "oh, **** the world". I'll watch lots of utube. I'll ask a friend to hang out with me for the weekend. I'll dive myself into reading a book.

I'll go swimming for many months not doing proper one.

I'll go eat my favourite PHO.

I'll go cry.

I'll talk to my best bud faraway in Adel.

I'll do absolutely anything to keep myself up happy! (well of course preparing for the term after that...)

..... la la la.....

I know this is so stupid but as I've been tired of being nice in front of people who would really annoy me and I try to be nice, I'm now being such a bitch to them... And I tried, I really tried to maintain my dark face inside of me but still I feel bad for what I did... as always not thinking before my action :( I'm so tired of hiding things and not telling. You know why! There are certain things you keep to yourself and have to always be careful not hurting anyone's feelings... Yup my chemical changes is changing... of course. May be that's just why I'm being such a bitch and so aggressive and depress lately.

I apologized!

I am such a selfish brat right?